Step out the tears

I really want to forget the worst period and experience that make me feel deeply sad. Sometimes, I feel exhausted and want to ask my Lord why you give me this experience. I know that through out this, you want me to be more tough and greet people with my heart. By viewing my best fds, I have a deeply feel from their caring. Their pray and encouragment make me feel warm and encourage me don't close my heart and step out. I know that God is love and just like a doctor to fix my broken heart. Up until now, I can't confirm I can pass through all of my sadness since I still fall tears when the past coming out from my mind without a sudden. It maybe affect my sleep as well. But I really thx my Lord. His greatest Love make me feel warm and security. I know that I miss the past period to be with him and can't go back the same place to praise my Lord. My emotional turn uncomfuntable and sad when I try to go back and look at his photos. I have try my best and hope to forget the sadness but I can't. However, I really miss my brothers and sisters in that church. I want to ask him ''why'' but I know Love is hard to explain. At this time, I just hope to have a stable church. And my Lord make away my sadness. It's great to see his work which I feel much better than few months before. In future, hope I will meet the one who treat me as his lover and praise our Lord in each minutes. And thx for meeting you and being one of my push growing guy . learn a lot from yours(attutide and thinking).

神ar, 我看了無數的書, 看了不同的vido, 聽了不同的歌. 我總是令身邊的好友擔心. 現在我很想很想尋找快樂. 教會, 不知有沒有心力回去了,神ar, 我看不到你, 離開是否一條出路, 不知. 求神繼續帶領我的前路, 做好目前是最重要.

願意等候主旨意, 願靠主深得恩惠, 安息主賜予, 相信聖經. 我會繼續等候, 等使衪的帶領, 我是愛這家的, 應當剛強壯膽, 神會安排最好的給我 :-> 原諒我以往一切的過錯

終於可以從獲一點的笑容, 這一星期,個心由劇痛,到微痛,到一時時的痛. 真的很想他在我的記憶中消失.雖然我不是做得最好,但我真的全心全意的愛,亦有努力為此祈禱,最後都是這樣. 神ar,現在的我又站在十字路口上, 很想回去教會,又怕見到他及他的家人. 但是我想回去的原因, 大概是一個習慣及聽到神的道吧. 人的心真的很軟弱, 現在我真的沒有勇氣去面對. 幸好,神給我身邊的小天使一直守望住. 實在是感恩. 明天去見教士,討論信仰及現在的困難, 願神繼續的帶領.

神AR, 我現在個心很痛很痛, 如果是愛的話,不是說要一起而行ma, 有咩問題都可以磨合到。